desabafo

i'm so tired... i'm loosing all my energy trying to pretend that i'm ok and gentle when the truth is that i'm not that glad... i'm so tired of trying to say positive words to some hopeless people... i'm tired of being kind with my pacients, when, of course, they all come with pain and aches... i try to concentrate at their problems but i just dont have physical strength anymore...

i just had to sit down while i was taking shower... i'm smoking a lot... i'm drinking a lot... i'm writting a lot... thinking a lot... maybe feeling a lot too...

it's just tuesday... and i'm capotating... not a good thing at all...

sorry, i'm not complaining... not asking for help.... it's just an outburst... i'm not used to do this...

ouvindo: bachiana nº5 - egberto gismonti (villa lobos)